To my dearest oldest child Jalan,
Words cannot express the pain I feel right now. It is exactly one week since I last heard your voice. I'd give anything to have you back here with me. You are the best son, best brother, best friend any one could have. Everyday I wake up and ask God for a favor. Give me my son back. Let me hear him say, "You know mom, Kendrick is better than Drake." I wouldn't even disagree with you.
I will never be okay again. There is a whole in my soul, in my spirit that can never be filled. I know you're in heaven with family and you are free. Give Trevell, great grandma, and great grandpa a hug from me. Til we see each other again, I love you. I miss you immeasurably.